Ms. Erable

I could take accusations especially when I know it is not true. But, it is the ‘WHY’ they tend to accuse me, was the most thorny part to bear. It is even more distressing when you are being generalized as someone who was once part of your persona--one of your multiple personalities with which you tried to get rid of because you have found the reason to. Just so when you resolve to change for the better, fate makes sure that you don’t.

Being judgmental is embedded in the conventional population. Personally, I have learned to embrace that for I constitute the normal curve a.k.a. the stereotypes. Quite frankly, I don’t give a damn of how people tend to brand me. Nevertheless, when you expect that this is such ‘misery-loves-company’ melodrama population; you still would want to be understood with a handful...or the least, with only one person. You somehow expect that the earthly counterpart of Neo Anderson would understand you inside-out, naked or even fully dressed. You wished that even if the world have turned their backs on you, you still appear triumphant for your source code reads that a unique individual filled the void, someone with equal significance to the elixir of life.

You barely step your feet on the ground as if dozed with 10 times more prozac than a bipolar depressed individual should take. Slowly did it start to surface that your Neo is a just part of those who are damned for mediocrity. A viral infected Agent Smith in the flesh.

“Why do good things come to an end?”, because I am not Cinderella, Belle, Ariel, Snow White... because I’m not in a fairytale storybook. I should not expect for a Prince, it is just so unrealistic, but I never did expect for one. I was expecting for someone who would be bitter to me so long as it is what he truly is. Someone who would tell me that I am so attached with my misery and would still love for who I really am. Someone who would respect my ideas on Evolution and obsession of Charles Darwin, my few commentaries on the Bible, my critiques on political balderdash, my absurd belief on Sigmund Freud and psychoanalysis...

Could someone please see me behind my face and infamous escapades? A lot of people tell me that I’m a difficult person. It is maybe because they expected something less and could not handle more. 1+1=3 ... I am greater than the sum of my parts, fyi.

What a relief to realize that even if life may have been against me at times, but hell yeah, I’m enjoying it.

The Itch

There's an itch in me that I want to scratch and yet I could not seem to find where it's coming from. I have scratched all reachable part of my body and yet, no relief was obtained.  Am I  having delusions of some sort or perhaps psychosomatic ones. I could feel that anytime I could just snap out of this condition, get a knife and kill whoever i want. I need help. I have pent up emotions I could not possibly get out of my system.
I could barely breathe and I feel like my room is getting smaller. I have dry throat and it aches everytime i swallow my spit. There's a one ton element pushing down my chest. I've got the coldest sweat and my hands are shaking beyond richter's scale could fathom. Valium please.

To All Filipinos who dream of genuine service to our people:from Raffy Perfecto

You lost. So What??
Keep the Charge ON!

"Ang Kapatiran" is a shaft of light on our
grim political landscape. During the last
election, the party and its candidates
offered a beam of hope to those who
still dream of genuine service to God, people,
country and environment. That is the reason
why "Ang Kapatiran" has stirred the imagination
of the idealistic sectors of society such as those
represented by Omi Castanar, of the
Ateneo Student Leaders Assembly (ASLA).

As I express my gratitude and admiration
for those who believed in the party and joined me
in supporting it last election, I also would like
to challenge its leadership. Let the
last election be its initial burst of brilliance.
But please keep the fires of its ideals
burning through the sustained flame
of meaningful socio-political-spiritual
involvement in the evangelization of governance
and resurrection of righteousness in politics.
The present political situation and the unfolding
scenario, e.g.; the sooooo slow canvassing of
votes , the swiftt decimation of political activists
through extrajudicial killings and kidnappings, murder
of political leaders, jockeying for juicy positions
by the newly elected "trapos" and their cohorts -
whle the hapless masses continue to endure
grinding poverty- should arrest the attention of
every well-meaning Filipino. I hope "Ang Kapatiran"
can still serve , not only as a beam of light but also a
"force for good." in this gloomy arena.

Every one can contribute a share
towards this pursuit. More for "Ang Kapatiran"
which has generated enough goodwill to be
able to contribute greatly in this regard, in
and/or out of government.

The least that the party can do at the moment
is to rerspond with passion to the call of
Omi Castanar and to every call for the party's
involvement in the Filipinos' struggle for reforms.

In Christ,
Grace

I believe that more than 45 million Filipinos love our country!
"No one can do everything, everyone can do something"

Example:
Buy Filipino-made goods - it will create jobs. We have power in numbers (90 million Filipinos acting together; wow!)

Mabuhay ang Pinoy!

Raffy Perfecto