vox emoticon

i am nowhere near perfection but when i make the wrong decisions, you throw stones. i have feelings and could feel pain but you prefer not to see me cry. you know i have good things to share but you don't want to hear my thoughts.you love to see me smile but you don't really know what I've been through.

feel me coz i am vulnerable
help me because i am weak
rescue me coz i'm in pain
listen to me coz i need to be heard

don't you know that i am happiest with you
but when you see me happy
i hope that ul be happy for me also


i am weak because of you
and i am strong because of you


i miss you.xoxo

Staind - So Far Away [OFFICIAL VIDEO]

I am enthralled with this song. Everytime I hear it, I always take a pause and savor it magnificence. The intro guitar riff is simply amazing, please excuse me for lack of a better term. Immortal!!!



Sharing the lyrics also...

This is my life
Its not what it was before
All these feelings I’ve shared
And these are my dreams
That I’ve never lived before
Somebody shake me
Cause I, I must be sleeping

(chorus)
And now that we're here,
So far away
All the struggle we thought was in vain
And all the mistakes,
One life contained
They all finally start to go away
And now that we're here its so far away
And I feel like I can face the day
I can forgive, and I’m not ashamed to be the person that I am today immortal lines! =)These are my words
That I’ve never said before
I think I’m doing ok
And this is the smile
That I’ve never shown before

Somebody shake me
Cause I, I must be sleeping

(chorus)
And now that were here
So far away
All the struggle we thought was in vain
And all mistakes one life contains
They all finally start to go away
And now that were here
So far away
And I feel like I can face the day
I can forgive, and I’m not ashamed to be the person that I am today

I'm so afraid of waking
Please don't shake me
Afraid of waking
Please dont shake me

(chorus)
And now that were here
So far away
All the struggle we thought was in vain
And all the mistakes one life contains
They all finally start to go away
And now that were here
So far away
And I feel like I can face the day
I can forgive, and I’m not ashamed to be the person that I am today

Week 2: Only Reminds Me of You

When you left, not only have I lost a husband, I departed with my bestfriend. YOu were my confidant on shitty days and you were my sole source of relief on disturbingly odd consequences. I thought I would feel better and more used to your absence by now. But not. Hell not!!! I feel worse and this apathy is killing me. And this is what I call exaggeration at its worst form. Forgive me for cursing love songs before, now I could definitely relate to them. huhuhu....

Everywhere I go and everything I do and think of, reminds me of you. And it's becoming more painful every passing day. I have to do something with this prolonged absence of yours. I'm getting a passport not later than May of this year. Apply for a job where you and I could work and raise our family. I don't care how long I will be pushing my luck. Its the best I could do to remedy this irregularity we are in. Families are not designed for prolonged absence, back it up with effin statistics, I'm scared, definitely scared.=(

Week 1:Missing You

This feeling will pass, I'll get used to your absence. I know the kids will understand, sooner or later.

But no matter how I tried to hide from my sadness, keeping myself from crying, they hunt me in my sleep. Nightmare and crying fits at night, I'm defenseless over my subconcious. I am weak over your absence.

Doing the things that we used to do together with the kids are excruciating. But i'm keeping it in mind that I'll get used to this, sooner or later.

I thought i'll never get to experience this feeling coz I've always thought we are inseparable. I am never for this but you believe this is for the best. And so, I will give this to you, no matter how difficult it is for me and the kids. I could handle. I'm the strong one di ba? At first I didn't know, now I realized, I am a cry-baby without you.

Huhuhuhuhuhuh...

Will see how this progress... for week 2. =( I am soo missing you.